Abrakadabra.. finally i'm blogging again, lol. It feels like centuries since i haven't open my blog. I even didn't remember my blog password and i gotta open my email and reset a new password. There's sooo muuch events in my life that i wanna write down about. And most of it is about him, lol. And also about my studies and etc.
Well, i just heard a relly old song from destinychild - "brown eyes". And this song just reminds me of him. I miss him.
BROWN EYES
Remember the first day that I saw your face?
Remember the first day that you smiled at me?
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about.
Remember the first day that you called my house?
Remember the first day when you took me out?
We had butterflies, although we tried to hide it
And we both had a beautiful night.

The way we held each others hand
The way we talked, the way we laughed
It felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me 'cause he told me so
I know that he loves me 'cause his feelings show
And when he stares at me, 
you see he cares for me 
You see how he is so deep in love.
I know that he loves me 'cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me 'cause it's me he trusts 
And he's missin' me if he's not kissin' me
And when he looks at me, his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed?
Remember the first day we had an argument?
We apologized, and then we compromised
And we haven't argued since.
Remember the first day we stopped playing games?
Remember the first day you fell in love with me?
It felt so good to say those words
'Cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hands
The way we talked, the way we laughed
It felt so good to fall in love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I'm so happy, so happy that you're in my life and baby
Now that you're a part of me you've shown me
Shown me the true meaning of love
And I know he loves me

GRATEFUL ♥

Saturday, 1st October 2011.

“We often take for granted the very things that most deserve our gratitude.” ~Cynthia Ozick

Me and my med school friends had an assignment to visit school for students with special needs education and to observe how they interact with each other. This experience was truly AMAZING !!! The whole day, i was feeling HAPPY and so GARTEFUL.This experience truly open my eyes to simple things that we tend to forget. Simple things that we should be gratefull for every single day.  Each day we can wake up to see the sunrise, to hear the noise of any chirping sound of a bird in the morning, and breath fresh air. While there are others that are born with impairments or disability to do those things. I saw so many new faces, happy faces, at that school. Even with any limitation that these innocent kids had, there are one thing in common between all of them : "They have a BIG smile on there faces!". They can still be happy in any condition they are in. 

Sometimes when we are so tired with so many problems in our life, we complain too much and take things for granted. But with this experience, it made me realize again how there is so many thing to appreciate around me . I realized all the things I’d been given are not rights, but privileges. I realized there are people out there who don’t have their five senses, and to have mine is a gift, Alhamdulillah.

Sometimes it’s easy to feel bad because we’re going through a tough time in life. However, remember no matter how bad your situation may seem, there are tens of thousands of things to be grateful for in life ...

I want to learn how to sew!

i love seeing people who has any kind of hobby and really put all their heart in it when they're doing it. I'd love to learn how to sew someday :)

BE THANKFULL :)

Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire,

If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don’t know something

For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.

During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations

Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge

Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes

They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you’re tired and weary

Because it means you’ve made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.

A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are

also thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.

Find a way to be thankful for your troubles

and they can become your blessings.

by Unknown author

my Random tought

 may time show the real truth behind everything ..

sometimes over-analyzing everything just makes things complicated

waiting sometimes sucks, but the truth is worth waiting for ..

rather than forcing something to be told ..

u just gotta be patient and let everything to revealed by it self ..

and even in the end of that long waiting,

it doesn't match ur expectation ..

it's okay, because that's life ..

things doesn't always turns out the way we imagined it to be..

u have to be strong, no matter what ..

what happens in life can either break u or make u stronger ..

it all depends on you how u can solve and handle it ..

Breaking Poor Reading Habits

I found this cool article about SPEED READING, learning to read more efficiently ! :)

Habit: Reading word by word
This is how children are taught to read, but when you concentrate on separate words you often miss the overall concept of what is being said. People who read each word as a distinct unit comprehend less than those who read faster by "chunking" words together in blocks.

Solution: Speed reading involves reading blocks of words at one time and comprehending the meaning of the word group. Think of viewing a digital image. There are millions of pixels that only make sense when they are seen together. In the same way, our brains can comprehend ideas better when it takes in a group of words at one time.
Practice expanding the number of words that you read at a time. You may also find that you can increase the number of words read by holding the text a little further from your eyes. The more words you can read in each block, the faster you will read!

 
Habit: Sub-vocalization
This is the habit of pronouncing each word in your head as you read it. Most people do this to some extent or another. When you sub-vocalize you "hear" the word being spoken in your mind. This takes much more time than is necessary because you can comprehend a word much quicker than your can say it.

Solution: To turn off the voice in your head you have to first acknowledge that you do it (how did you read the first part of this article?) and then you have to practice not doing it. When you sit down to read, tell yourself that you will not sub-vocalize. You have to practice and practice this until this bad habit is erased. Reading blocks of words also helps as you can't "say" a block of words.

Eliminating sub-vocalization alone can increase your reading speed by an astounding amount. Otherwise, you are limited to reading at the same pace as talking which is about 250-350 words per minute. If you are an efficient scanner, you may increase this rate to between 400 and 500 words per minute. The only way to break through this barrier is to stop saying the words in your head as you read. If you can train yourself to simply scan the words without thinking about the pronunciation, you will increase your speed significantly.

Habit: Inefficient eye motion
Slow readers tend to focus on each word and work their way across each line. The eye can actually span about 1.5 inches at a time which, for an average page, encompasses four or five words. Related to this is the fact that most readers don't use their peripheral vision to see words at the ends of the line.

Solution: Soften your gaze when you read. By relaxing your face and expanding your gaze, you will begin to see blocks of words instead of each word as distinct unit. When you get good at this your eyes will drift across the page. When you get close to the end of the line, let your peripheral vision take over to see the last set of words. This way you can quickly scan across and down to the next line.

Habit: Regression
This is unnecessary re-reading of material. Sometimes people get in the habit of skipping back to words they just read and other times they jump back a few sentences just to make sure that they read something right. When you "skip back" like this you lose the flow and structure of the text and your overall understanding of the subject decreases.

Solution: Be very conscious of regression and do not allow yourself to re-read material. To reduce the number of times that your eyes skip back to a previous sentence, run a pointer along the line as you read. This could be a finger, or a pen or pencil. Your eyes will follow the tip of your pointer, smoothing the flow of your reading. The speed at which you read using this method will largely depend on the speed at which you move the pointer.

Habit: Poor Concentration
If you've tried to read while the TV is on, or when there is lots of activity around you, you know how hard it is to concentrate on one word, let alone on many sentences strung together. Reading has to be done in environment where external distractions are at a minimum.

Solution: Stop multitasking while reading. If you are attempting to speed read, this is particularly important because when you use the speed reading techniques of chunking blocks of words and ceasing to sub-vocalize, you may have "read" one or two pages before you realize you haven't understood something properly. Pay attention to internal distractions as well. If you are rehashing a heated discussion you had earlier, or wondering what to make for dinner, this will also limit your ability to process more information.

Sub-vocalization actually forces your brain to attend to what you are reading and that is why people often report they can read and listen to the radio or watch TV at the same time. To become an efficient reader you need to stop doing these things all together.

Habit: Approaching reading linearly 
We are taught to read across and down, taking in every word, sentence, paragraph, page, and chapter in order. When you do this, though, you pay the same attention to supplementary and superfluous material as you do to the critical portions. There is usually far more information written than you actually need to understand.

Solution: Stop reading a book like you would listen to a speech. Scan the page for headings and look for the bullet points or things in bold. There is no rule saying you have to read in the order the author presents the information. Do a quick scan of the page and decide quickly what is necessary and what isn't. Skim over the fluff and pay attention to the key material.
As you read, look for the little extras that authors add to make their writing interesting and engaging. If you get the point, there is no need to read the example, anecdote, or metaphor. Similarly, decide what you need to re-read as well. It is far better to read the one critical paragraph twice than to read all eight paragraphs describing that same concept.

After reading this article, i realize there's so many things i've done incorrect in my reading skills :

• reading word by word (check)
• sub - vocalization in my mind everytime i'm reading something (check)
• regresion (sometimes check, i tend to read the same line over and oveeeer again when i'm confuse and not focus at what i'm reading .. AND then i just end up MORE confuse, lol)
• ineffecient eye motin (sometimes check, according to the situation : if i'm a hurry a.k.a SKS a.k.a sistem kebut semalam, my eye motion is super duper FAST! lol)
• poor concentration (not really, according to the situation)
• approaching reading linearly ( this is my fatal mistake ! hha .. i always tend to read something in order without doing any scanning of the whole content)

gotta change so many things to be a better and efficient reader, caiyo :D
p.s : thanks to gogo :)

A 15 year old girl holds hands with her 1 year old son. People call her a slut, no one knows she was raped at 13. People call another Guy fat. No one knows he has a serious disease causing him to be overweight . People call an old man ugly. No one knew he had a serious injury to his face while fighting for our country in the war. People call a women bald but they don’t know she has cancer. 

 

.SO DON'T JUDGE ! if u don't know the story behind it.

" We have this idea that love is supposed to last forever.But love isn’t like that. Its a free-flowing energy that comes and goes when it pleases. Sometimes it stays for life; other times it stays for a second, a day, a month, or a year. So don’t fear love when it comes simply because it makes you vulnerable. But don’t be surprised when it leaves, either. Just be glad you had the opportunity to experience it "

by Neil Strauss

Time Goes by So FAST

It felt like it was just yesterday when i was a kid and still playing hide and seek with my lil' bro, Ivan. His my only sibling, so it's normal for me to feel this lonely everytime his not around, isn't it? We used to be together playing all the time. We played PS, hide and seek, monopoly, UNO .. yeah, almost everything. And suddenly time goes by so fast, we end up so into our own daily activities and it seems we are slowly drifting away from each other. Drifting towards different directions, different dreams to chase and reach, and different path to walk. I know and realize that someday we will have our own routines, family, life to think about. But i miss those days when we were not separated by distance this far away. I'm not use to say goodbyes. Distances sucks! I MISS YOU lil'bro.